i feel so remorseful right now.

how did i even tolerate my immature behaviour .

i was throwing tantrum during dinner over some trival matter.

Because of that everyone had to give in to me and mommy was

trying her very best to please me wheni just simply ignored.

someone slap me please.

Friday:
there was no lesson as we celebrated teacher's day.
well, the concert was fantastic but the claim-to-be aces day was seriously dumb.
nevertheless it was entertaining.
0824A, where the fun people belongs. :D

after which i headed back to xms.

its like such an annual thingy.

met up with the rest of the class and looked for our beloved teachers.

it brought back a lot of memories. i miss those days.

oh wells.

Then, lunch at our usual hangout place.

ban mian and bubble tea!

thats partly the reason why i went back.

&today:

woke up quite early to finish up my chinese essay and journal.

im gonna clear all my chinese homework by sunday!

yes, i will.

went down to vivo for my bnjs and roamed around for awhile because i set off at around 5?

i was so annoyed with myself.

it took me 1.5h to prepare before setting out.

and the reason being- i couldnt decide on what to wear.

im such a fatass now.

thats what my mom and sis have been telling me.

and i totally agree.

all my clothes seemed so tight.

i can't fit into them anymore.

i wanna go for liposuction.

AHHHHHHHHH!

please stop me from munching on tidbits and chocolates!

to make things worse, its the start of the september holidays.

im so dead, im not gonna turn into a sumo wrestler.

NO WAY! NEVER!

whether it is holiday or not doesnt really make a difference.

i still have to report to school almost everyday

and the list of homework that i have to complete is neverending,

bullshit.

one month to mid course.

im off to do math. no more U this time.

tata (:

school was terrible without the presence of as and janelle
and once again i was late for school.
was very reluctant to go to school this morning but i have to
because mommy doesn't allow me to be absent.
she just thinks that because i didnt do my work or whatever shit
thats why i wanna pon.
however thats not the case, i merely wanted to stay at home and study for
the upcoming geog test which is gonna be a killer.
well, she doesnt understand at all.

i have so much, so much to say
but just don't know how to put them into words.
anyway thank you bc for being a solace to me.
shall get back to work now
tata.

i seriouslyhate you from the bottom of my heart.
you are the cause for everything.
if you've let go, i might be happier.
so much more happier.

this is so unlike me.
why did i even put myself through all these misery.
i know evading the problem is not going to help
but for now i will do that.

no idea why i get so emotional these few days.
things just aren't going the right way.
its just pure annoyance.

alright, enough of those distressing stuff.
school ended early today as there was no training.
had photo taking and bus-ed home with janelle.
had some gossips here and there.
anyway i hope i wont look retarded when the photos
are out in the handbook next year.
janelle, as and i have been laughing at people when we
were flipping through last year's handbook.
i know its very mean of us, thats why we have stopped
in case the same happen to us.

i feel more comforted right now after completing
my vectors tutorial.
finally got the gist of it. like after soooooo long.
not gonna sleep early tonight.
waiting for mom to come home with my presents.
although she has been traveling quite often,
it still feels weird without her presence.
and i have piles of geog notes waiting for me to memorise and study..
thats the thing when you take humanities subject,
however i didn't regret doing it.
in fact i love it the most among all.
thats all for now.
tata~

Replies:

Asmine: thanks girl. i haven seen you for a long time. its time to do some catching up (:

Rad-Z: glad that you know it. now i know how bitchy you are. xD

Leegek: yup, i won't give up. will continue mugging like how we used to do it in the past. Don't forget our date (:

Warren: okay. thanks for having faith in me. i wont give up, don't worry.

Andrina: Thank you! it doesn't matter, its better to be late than never. alright, PERSEVERANCE :D

I just abhor the things im doing now.
EVERYTHING.
i don't love school as much as i used to.
in fact i detest it right now.
people often say, the key to success is failure,
but i doubt it.
all this while, i have been failing badly
and i don't see that beam of light infront of me.
maybe its just me or what..
i don't know.
i have totally loss interest
and confidence to keep me going.
how am i gonna survive till mid course?

it wasn't a constructive weekend for me
due to some many reasons.
i have just completed revision for chem test tomorrow.
though i am okay with it because its one of my favourite chapters,
it always end up being a disappointment.
even though im so used to it,
its can be really demoralising and depressing.
so much things to do yet there is so little time.
& i feel so unintelligent.
this totally sucks.

before i start posting..
this is for you, Kelly:
HappySWEET17 (:





alright, back to main point.
had a geography field trip to science centre today.
believe it or not, its my first time there.
never in my life have i been there before,
so i was quite fascinated.
went for exhibition on climatic change, water trail and short movie screening at the omni threatre, the design there was rather cool.
so we watched a clip on the colorado river/grand canyon.
tells us that the world's water sources are depleting at an alarming rate.
the earth's future is uncertain.
so people, do conserve water and resources!
after which mel,as,harry,ryan and i went for the morphis ride.
although it cost us only 4bucks, i swear its a waste of money.
it was so retarded and the 6 of us just couldnt stop laughing inside.
so thats about it.
dinner and home sweet home.

some random pictures we took there:

mellissa.vanessa.as.janelle.amanda

i wrote that (:
we simply love the camera!

this is Ryan.

'it just takes one determined person to change the world'

Happy Birthday, Vanessa !

alright, im so gonna sacrifice my sleeep for this entry even though im really tired. (:

thank you guys, you totally brighten up my day with that

bright yummy mango cakeeeeeeeeeee!

friends, i can't live without.

Radzee, if you happen to read this it is a mango and not a papaya cake.to be continued...

Besties<3

so as i was embarking on my work last night, banana gave me a super big surprise. she just appeared in my house, right in front of me in the middle of the night when i was dressed in my pyjamas and hair all over the place looking so retarded, she had a piece of cake on her hand

and was happily singing me the bday song.

i didnt know how to react.

stunnedshockedsurprised and all you can think of.

she came with alfred to specially pass me the present.

i was so damn touched.

and to add on the the surprise, monkey & banana actually had it all planned out with my sisters.

so amazing.!

alright, i just wanna thank you both for everything.

i will never forget this.

With Love.

beloved Janelle,

i love your prezzie sooooooooo much! just like how much i love you. xD

like you say its not something big but meaningful enough for me to treasure it. bet you must have spent a lot of time on it. Thank You (:

& lastly those who have sent their well wishes one way or another

thank you for making this day a memorable one for me.

deeply appreciated (:

HELLO.
im blogging at this hour simply because there's no lessons tmr.
will be commemorating national day and dismissal is at 11am. (:
movieeeeeeee with janelle after that and finally meeting up with banana and monkey!
we are gonna have a great time catching up and bitching.
so i guess i most probably won't be sleeping later.
gotta do some work so i wont feel so guilty that im spending time outside and not studying.
alright, i will upload more tomorrow.
goodnight world~


i love the tranquility when you aren't around.
you are just too annoying. i swear

its a rare sight that im blogging on a weekday.
well, today's been a looooong day.
im totally drained right now but there
is still so much to do.
anyway i got bored during geography
lecture just now and started doing some calculation:
24h a day.
-12h spent in school.
-6h to sleep.
-2h to get home, bath and have dinner.
-4h left to study.
and the cycle goes on.
totally no time to interact with family members.
it may sound as though i am exaggerating,
however 90% of the time is always like that.
alright, i should just get back to work
and not waste precious time anymore! ><
tata<3

presenting my german friend, Benedict (;

we become friends during pae.

was in the same history class as him.

he never fails to enlighten me with

all the interesting facts about germany

im so gonna miss him.

alright im in the midst of doing work right now,

but somehow i have the sudden urge to blog!

much happenings in school recently.

but as usual, im too lazy to list down.

well, thats as good as not saying.

bahs.

july has passed abruptly and its AUGUST!

oh wells. i love this month [=

its gonna be packed with activities this week

with all the celebrations for national day.

im anticipating all the fun.

was chatting with weixiang ytd about

our school life and stuff.

and he asked me a question which
set me pondering for some time.

"have you ever regretted going jc?"

actually i have been asking myself this question

every now and then but couldnt come to

any conclusion.

i guess even if i regretted its kinda late, isnt it?

just have make the best out of it.

thats all for now.

tatas.

replies:

JUDY: i miss you loads. anyway your bday is around the corner. if you guys are meeting up, CALL ME ALONG!

LEEGEK: you are the one and only leegek i know. (:

KAIXIN: i didnt forget about you. more likely its the other way round.><

GFF <3

MONKEY: counting down to our meeting! yays

HCH91: yeah. its raining raining. :D